.    .  . ........ i'm back ~

yes.... 

it's been a while. 

many reasons... .   .

many distractions

many tales

and new beginnings ~ *

all good.
all edible.

all nourishing.

all for a reason ~ *


.................. and more to come.

~DEEP KISSES & full of life... .

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or you may not see the intended, lovely font~ there, good... )

~ l i f e ... .   .

.  . ..... D E E P   K I S S E S .

deep passions.

deep dedication and direction.

other deep people to share it all with.

and really, really feeling what you're doing.

otherwise...

what the heck is it all for, anyway~?

we're going around once with this Life~

(well, this time anyway... )

so what are we gonna do with the chance ~?

with our own personal bag of tricks safely tucked

 in our pockets ~

in our heads ~ 

in our hearts ~

in our computers ~ ~ ?

what would you shout from the rooftops ~?

you just gotta get it out there .

so~~~~ .. .   .    .       .

the inspiration for all of this shouting~ 

just recently... .   .

my computer and it's backup were stolen.

all my writings.

all my photos.

the beautiful and passionate documenting of my Life.

gone.

& yes.... .   .

it's taking me awhile,

it comes and goes,

but of course, it is all inside of me.

i know that.

it's still hard .

but... .

the writing, how can i get it back ?

how can i do it all again ?

the passionate moments put into words .

the lovely life happenings .

the photos of temporary art .

the feelings... that all of it could conjure right back up .

i know.

it's inside.

without the physical baggage to lug around.

so, as they say..... .   .

put that piece of cake on your head and

G O   F O R   I T  ~ !

let's dig deep.

roll around in it.

share it.

have too much wine with friends over it......  .     .

cause ~ you may loose it.

period.

gone.

ouch.

it's ok. it's ok.   *  ~........ .    .      .        .

~ a ' good-bye ' tart... . .

a  ' t a r t '  as

.... . .  good-bye ?

*

this passionate

" e d i b l e " 

offered as my token of farewell... .   .

to a person ?

to a chapter ?

. ... a dream ?

a tart made of

everything i hold dear.

everything that's  " me "  to offer ~

~ these sweet, fresh blueberries

warmed gently in my own rose glaze...

perched on top of a lovely lemon custard...

cradled by a strong enough 

yet gentle & crumbling sweet crust

made with a fresh herb and a pinch 

of white pepper for spice,

then adding nuts for

 ground and strength and texture...

presented humbly in a brown parchment paper cup,

surrounded with another cup of color.

 color, that i can't seem to do without...

finished with, and nestled in, and crowned in

 more petals.

*

so, there it is.

me, given, as one single bite.

. ...cause i just don't know how to do it any other way ~

as the songs say.... .

*   baby i give you my world... .

you can go your own way... .

you can call it another day... .

*   is this real?

is this just fantasy?

nothing really matters...

. ......any way the wind blows ~

the beautiful flip side of this record is :

hello.... .   . ? !

hello to a new chapter?

hello to a new mountain top view?

to my own new  'hell drive' ?

( ~ " moth to a flame " comes to mind here... . ? )

~ so always i ask:

what  "g i f t " did i get to unwrap here ?

and then.... .

what do i now offer in return ?

~ h e l l o !

bring it.... .    .

( . ..ok, so where's that xxxxxxx screenplay template ? )

~ ~~* jasmine flower layers... . . ~*

~       ~   ~~*

it's

all

about

the

l

a

y

e

r

s

isn't it ?

 ~ ~ ............*

i seem to always want it all.

all at the same time.

fresh,

 unique,

satisfying,

 separate, 

together

always... . 

a smooth flowing blend

of nourishments,

 of tastes and textures and thoughts and colors ~

~ with people & food & places,

comforting tradition,

conversation,

electric new ideas,

clarity,

mess.

and most of all... .

i want it, i need it to be full

with emotions.

with feeling.

with meaning.

with caring.

with a heart.

all of this is my real

 f o o d .

emotions and places and people

to feed to myself.

deliciously stirring in

all the spicy intensities

of  'real time'

of real voices

of real... .

i think it's called  life's foods .

with all the juicy imperfections.

all the wonder.

the inspirations.

the lessons.

laughs.

stories.

tears.

~ so... .   .

where are we today?

what are we eating?

what do i think?

what do i feel?

who's coming along?

who's there?

how hungry am i?

how do i know when i've arrived?

.    .  . . ............ & why ?

we are now serving lunch.... .   .     .

~ please be seated.

n e x t Window... . " painted C a k e s ~ "

" c a k e s ! "

~ok...

february is here.

to me, that means something sweet.

.  . ... what's really  s w e e t  in life?

so this installation is all about

' what's on the plate? '

. ...on life's pedestal ?

my inspiration?

a vision of that ultimate, fantasy  ' c a k e ' !

~*

tall, tall, never-ending  t a l l~

smooth and beautiful and etherial~

hand-painted with a sweet wash of edible pastry color~

piled even taller with layers of the darkest chocolate

spread thin like paper~

pale green chopped pistachios & rose petals

as confetti ~

with of course... .

the ' cherry on top ' !

so... .  here's the box of goodies...

the tools...

the magic ~

from this... .   .

.  . ...to this.

( magic how it all fits in one little box- )

just think if we all

put everything in our lives on a pedestal ~

well, pedestal... in a good way

like- with a chosen "respect" and "attention".

right down to the cherry filling.

with the leaves and stems and pits.

every detail accepted and... .

 cher(ry)-ished !

the little cakes

just starting out... .

to the big cakes

that have been in your life for awhile.

giving our full attention

~ top... .  to bottom.

to the layers upon

l

a

y

e

r

s

upon layers of living, of experience.

( those layers seen & those frosted over~ ) 

 so,

in choosing our newest

' sweet bites '... . 

 what do we bring our forks to?

how do we pick our  ' sweet '  life?

what do we want?

. ...(full) filling ?  . ...nourishing ?

so

 here's to  f e b r u a r y ~*

...the month of

 sweets

and love

and choices

and  ' c a k e s ! '

... . well, yummmm

i know i want mine, please, thank you

with tassels ~*